petits miracles

What does it mean to be a servant? Does it mean take and find what you are good at and contribute it to something bigger than yourself? Or does it mean take and find yourself and contribute that in the way it is needed? 


I have learnt it is the latter. Servanthood often does not give you an option of how to serve. Servants give of themselves how ever they are required to. I had this notion that I was going to use my graphic design knowledge to woo the Church I go to. Surely I would be the greatest servant, offering of my finest abilities.  I quickly learnt it was not going to happen that way. 


Discouraged after not getting my expected results, I turned to the Lord in Prayer. It became clear to me that if I really wanted to serve my Church, I needed to do just that. Serve. Not dictate in what ways I was willing to be helpful, or only offer my help in ways that benefited me. So I volunteered for amost every volunteer spot open, hoping that I could be used in some way- letting go of the thought of using my art. 


The next day I was contacted and asked to help with graphic design. Nothing is offical yet, but I have learned that often times we do selfish things, then try to shrink wrap them in self-less labels. When I earnestly learned that this instance was not about me, I was able to use one of my gifts to truly contribute.